Today was..


Port operation and IT in shipping business!





OK PO TOTALLY SUX I..
I THINK I'D FAIL.



i mean yes it's my fault for not studying..
i mean i DID try to put in effort.

like the lecturer continuously tell us to focus on "containezisation",
"types of ports", "unitisation", etc etc etc
AND ALMOST NOTHING OF IT CAME OUT.


and i studied so hard.... :(
for the ones there're important.
hpmm.

but nvm lecturer was nice.. i forgive him.










IT was okay.
I think i'd do well but maybe not too well.

have a feeling i'd be a little careless here and there but..
i'm not the type who would check my work.

too troublesome.

even for PSLE/O-level i never checked.. lol.



which then later i'd regret luh, haha.





BUT I'D NEVER CHANGE.





















OKAY SO TODAY IS 30TH AND MERCEDES IS OUT





AWWWWWWWWWW YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Hyotai hates me.

I'm losing grip.







I'm seen to be with you.




But my heart is with another.















So i'm facin' you.

The sides of mine forms a curve.

Tenderly I hold you..



But the spheres are hollow

hollow of your existence.


but yet they're filled.

All the yummy food

Tomorrow......








This idiotic moronic irritating module of mine (and everyone's)
called EFFECTIVE COMMINICATION...



has possibly 3 presentations,





AND I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK.









but however.. it's graded.




Should i skip class? :(



































Not only does this add to my despair....






this boring wearisome IRKSOME module has to add on ANOTHER presentation.
group presentation.













I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate HAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEE PRESENTATIONS.
REALLY HATE 'EM.

even in secondary school.. I HATED IT.
I REALLY REALLY HATED IT.

















SCHOOL Y U SO SCREWED UP.

Okay is been a long time since i blogged.






So....



Well since i've nothing to blog about..


SOME MAPLE SS-ES HERE:




AND YOU KNOW idk why i have some hidden power in getting pro badges.

MY BEST ONE EVER:


which then since.. I've no use for it (not that im gonna play maple that much)
so i gave it to.....





someone whom will play maple quite often AND..





HAS TO SAY WHAT I WANT HER TO SAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA




ok she's so cute muahahaha.







ok here are some random pix:














and one thing i find very sad hor..

is that no one really says byebye to me when i log off.
I'd be like "byeee peopleeeeee" and no reply.
:( damn sad.

so recently i made 1 or 2 friends during PQ..
and a little in MP.




AND THEY WERE THE ONES WHO SAID BYE TO ME..




whereas those whom i've known for few years
(since i quitted maple for few years to start with)
didn't even say anything...
:( just quiet.

so sad...... :( it's like i'm not cherished anymore.


o well guess it's like that.

well afterall when you have new friends you'll be more magnet-ed to them i guess.


sigh.













..~..








anyway regarding school...



exam's next week.
like omygod, haiz and there's this cca event tmr.
don't know whether to go or not.. :(




sighhhh i'm not that stress actually i just..
i can't bring myself to study.

i mean not like i studied in secondary school.
but in sec school.. i can play all the shit i ever want and still
do well for the last exam..
not EOY exam but.. O levels.

In my eyes i didn't do that bad. for someone like me..
even my guardian was shocked.. rofl she expected me to end up in ITE.
she said it with her own mouth.
and added that, "i want you to go ITE. so that you will learn to do things for yourself and wait for things to just happen."
... or something like that.
the meaning is just wanting me to fail so that i would 'learn things the hard way'.

rofl................ hard way easy way i wouldn't learn i guess lmao.











ok back to topic, in sec school only the end year counts but poly..
your end year grades is affected by your grades throughout..
so i guess.. haiz gotta force myself.
try. to. force. myself.

i don't like forcing myself :(
haiiiiiz .....

SO recently I have been mapling alot. (;









just to share some pix with you..

(or in other words, upload it so I can save space on my comp LOL)




I like the spamming of damages.
And that a single skill now can attack 3 times,
(e.g. shining ray only hit once last time, but now it has tripled).
makes the skill look so cool 8)









thanks to maple, I am able to find great friends,
though we're just "maple friends" or rather online friends,
you never failed my made me smile,
no matter how down and sad i am.
you're someone i can talk to, relieve myself from the sadness and stress of the real world.
Thank you, Yen.
thank you for putting in time for me, even tho you have better things to do.
You are responsible for my level ups, from when i joined back maple till now.
Even though you could have been partying in groups of 6, you solo-ed with me instead.








And thank you, to hyotai,
although you too, have better things to do,
having mountains of homework and reviews,
but you still put aside stuff for me..
and chatted with me. sharing stuff with me..
our feelings & past, and present life.
thanks for being there for me for the past 10 years or so :)







however, i still DO NOT forgive what you said ok!
about me talking to you just cause i have requests :(
you wait! 1 day, i'll find evidence!! :@
















anyway

and some simple pleasures in maple:
















I should.. Sort myself out.



I need to know what I want..
What is really good for me.

What do I need, what I don't..




Probably I'm on the wrong track again..

I'd need time to be crawling..





;( but I don't want to do this..

It's like having to restart a game which you've spent so much time on.



:( But in the end its all for the better.

But can I do it?
Can I really do it?
With my level of motivation now..

I can't even think straight of what I'm doing.
What I'm doing.. ?



Staring at the computer almost all the time, home or school?
Well aware my eyes are straining but ignoring myself.
Ignoring the awareness of the consequences.

... Is this what I want?
My whole life, focused on what I've been doing for the past few days, or maybe the past few months?

I need a break.
But what? How? When exams are less than 2 weeks later.



Who can save me? What can I do ?




So confused.

Why do I get weird thoughts especially at night.
As well as the sudden mood/feelings that gush all at once into me.
Whereas I'm like a zombie in daylight...








... I don't even know what I need know.

Yesterday was a typical Tuesday,
with classes from 11am~2.30pm.

HOWEVER WHAT'S DIFFERENT WAS DAT I PANGSEH-ED DARDAR♥ for MAPLE! :D




...








HOWEVER....... MAPLE BETRAYED POOR MS.NATNAT. :(










It stated maple 2x exp from 2pm.....









SO WHEN CLASS ENDED..


NATNAT PACKED EVERYTHING
AND CHIONGED ALLLLLLL THE WAY HOME.



however Maple would rank 2nd to too Food♥

and natnat's stomach has been battling against hunger since mid-class.....




SO NATNAT HAD NO CHOICE, NO CHOICE AT ALL!
but to satisfy, her, highness. ♥












HOWEVERRRR in the long ride home.
NATNAT'S IN A DILEMMA..

Of what delicacies to bring to her highness.



Takoyaki(craved), 菜贩, Currypuff, Subway, Mosburger, Mcdonalds,
KFC (sudden craving in class), Waffles, 7-11 quick bite sandwich,
Cereal (blueberry breakfast♥), Kuroya( Japanese omelette w rice & alot meat),
Cup noodles, Carrotcake, Mifen (sold near Bishan MRT) etc..

Basically everything that's available at Junction8/Bishan/7-11!!! :(


Cause i love fooooooood♥









IN THE END NATNAT KENOT WASTE ANYMORE TIME.
BECAUSE SHE WANNA ENJOY 2X EXP (It's already near 3pm)
So she went to takoyaki stall,
asked for 10 takoyaki LOLOLOLOLOL.





♥ Bacon cheese, Ham cheese, prawn & Chilli tuna LOL.
Although I don't really feel the tuna in chilli tuna but, it's okay.
I still love takoyaki!! LOL.


I remember in the past I've always wished there's a takoyaki stall near my house.
And whenever I felt like eating i must travel all the way to Bugis or Orchard..
Now both my house nearby and school have takoyaki.. LOL.




OKAY ANYWAY so yeah.
Bought takoyakiiiiii ;D





It's like yaaaaaaay natnat is so excited to eat them!


BUUUUUUUT for the sake of 2x exp NATNAT HAS NO TIME TO WASTE.

She even resisted the urge inside her to buy some waffles from 7-11 BUT,
FOR THE SAKE OF 2X EXP,
she WENT AGAINST HER WISHES, HER URGES, HER DESIRE,
and got home,


chiong bath (splattering water nia),
got her room ready, (on lappy, air con etc)
AND FINALLY GOT TO SIT DOWN.

and NO, natnat has not eaten YET!
SHE WANTS TO ENJOY HALF EATING AND PLAYING.. :D










SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO waited patiently,
and when is ready, TRIED TO GO INTO MAPLE!!!!





BUT WHO KNOWS!!!!!!!!!!!


THERE'S A 'URGENT MAINTENANCE'!!!!!!!!!
TILL 3.30!!!!!!!
ANDDDDD I WAS SO EARLYYYYYY :(

so natnat waited.
LESS PATIENTLY. :@





AND WAITED..
AND WAITED..
AND WANTED....







DID COMPLETELY NOTHING except fb tetris battle..
AND NOTHING ELSE.
and talking to darling yen of course.
After all I'm so gan chiong for her.
Because she jio me MP!
and.. ALTHOO SHE'S DOING IT FOR ME..
BUT..
I LOVE HER ALOTTTT :(





although she also not like me that much.






ANYWAY SO YEA.....




WHEN NATNAT IS BORED..
SHE..
EATS..



In the end server resumed @ 4.50pm.

WASTE MY TIME.. I WOULD HAVE BEEN OUTSIDE BUYING FOOD. :(




BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT.
THE POINT IS THAT..


BEFORE I GOT INTO MAPLE..





ALL THE TAKOYAKI IS GONE!!!!!!! D: D: D: D: D:




but nvm. :( natnat forgives herself.
SOOOOO NATNAT WENT TO PLAY MAPLE YAY~





AND AS YOU KNOW WHEN PLAYING MY MOUTH GETS REALLY BORED SO..





I AM SAD BECAUSE ALL MY TAKOYAKI IS GONE :((






so natnat started to doze around the house finding something to eat until..



SHE REMEMBERED HER 7-11 QUICK BITE SANDWICH STILL EXISTS.. LOL





when i opened the fridge la, lol.

I have a problem of forgetting what i buy and wasting it later :(






okay sooooooo anywaaaaaaay~







bb :D