sometimes....

i dont like things that people do for me.
i mean, of course i appreciate but..
i dont really want that. D:

how should i tell them that i dont like it
w/o hurting their feelings? :(










okay soooooo.
yeah.

today went to Singapore's Conference Hall.
was great. 8D
and i dont have stopper so i cant really play nicely.....
i mean, its damn uncomfortable.
play halfway, and my cello slips.
zzzz.










got back chem results.
not so satisfied but i guess it's okay.

got back LIT results.
quite good results for a test i didn't study for.
and then, he mentioned....
something like adding the other 'graded assignments'
which is supposedly our essays..
and guess what. i never handed up a single essay. EVER.

GG AND THE DEADLINE IS OVER. (Y)
SO YEAH
NO USE GETTING A FOR MY TEST.
MY LAZINESS OF NOT DOING HOMEWORK IS GONNA PULL IT DOWN ANYWAY.
goodluck nathyy :D








teeheeeeeeeeeeeee.

i love my dad.

*shy*

okayyyyyyy
my comp isn't fixed yet BECAUSE..
i hardly see my dad.
hmmmmm......








i wonder what will happen tmr.









because i was saying this,
but later alone.. i don't want it.

okay and so i got back my lappy.
yay?


but all my settings are gone :(


the windows ain't transparent anymore.
everything is weird.
the words are too big.
tabs are too stretched out.
i mean the words are stretched out too..



previously in msn my font size was 10.
now is 10, but its so much bigger.
soooooo much bigger!
i hate it!
it stings my eyes. :(
gives me headache.
omg!





nvm.
i shall bring this issue up to my dad tmr. :D
i guess.
do i even need the comp now? no.










anyway to update you abit of my life.
to make up for the missing posts eearlier hahaha
as im lazy to update with phone..




okay so i decided not to drop art anymore.
because i felt that it could be used to save my maths.
did i post this before? LOL feels familiar.
nvm.


anyway, i dropped to combined science alr. :D
took combined chemistry test today.
hmm not bhb-ing but its easy.
@_@" i mean it should be the work of the tuition ba.
although i hate it.
hahahah.





okay and so tmr would be.. maths.
and elective hist test.
idc about combined humans anymore because i screwed ss.

the 1st essay.. even the introduction wasn't completed.
because i couldn't think about the other 2 factors.
pfft.

2nd essay only did introduction.
yay!
1 mark!
at least it's not egg.
i managed to scribble some nonsense.
at least i tried.
yay!
symp[athy marks!
2/25 marks for ss!
REMEDIAL ~~~~~~~~~







soooooo yeah.
hmmmmmm.
side fringe. :D
i decided that hahahaha it's time to change.
but i look sooo weird :( in my fringe.
its like not long not short.
want put to the side also weird.
cant even stick there.
when drop down cover eyes,
make other ppl feel uncomfortable by even looking at me.
hmmmm i didn't care about that last time i just let them feel uncomfortable.
now im nicer i more considerate!
LOL




OKAY ANW
YOU KNOW I WASN'T EVEN LATE FOR SCHOOL
THEN THEY GO SAY WE LATE.
OMG!
nvm.
1st time offense.
but srsly wth sia
:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@::@:@:@:@:@:@




wah i think alot of teachers got problems with me LOL.
nvm. its ok. i understand.
T_T
T_T
T_T
T_T



GOODLUCK TO MYSELF FOR TMR'S EMATHS.
BECAUSE
i know i'd fail even if i try
BUT OF COURSE
im still gonna try.
my best.
i swear
i know the formulas right now
so
yeah
if i fail
i
will
NOT CRY
HAHAHAHA



kthxbye.

My cousin hor
He always see me lying on bed doing nothing.
At like 7pm
Now 10pm he sees me doing the same.
But the fact is that right after he went out @7+
I really got up and did my Chinese homework.
Till 9+
I prepare everything slp.
Then he come back and saw me lying on bed again.
Then he accuse me of sleeping my life away.
And wasting time while other ppl is crazy about Os.

Omg! So unfair!
They only assume what they see.
From what people choose to let them see.
And make conclusions.
And then spread it around.
But the truth is that they don't know the real person.
They don't know everything, but only part of it.




I will change myself.
And I will try to avoid being so catty from now on.

It's not that I'm hiding from you
It's just that it's better off w/o you knowing.






I'm not forcing you to trust me
To believe me.


Just do what you want.
And believe whoever you want.

I can't force you.

OMG YAY I realize my blog has loyal readers.
LOL.






Ok ermmm
Today was ok.

OMG YOU KNOW I TALKED TO THE MS MASTURA TODAY
SHE BLOODY SAID I CAN'T DROP ART
OMG
WHY NOT SIA
ITS THE SUBJECTS IM TAKING
I KNOW ITS WAY OVER THE DEADLINE
BUT IS IT SO MAFAN TO JUST CANCEL OFF A SUBJECT FROM A STUDENT?
she mentioned that even if it's mid years I can't drop le
SO WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO
I ALR SAY I CAN'T COPE
I HATE DRAWING
I HATE ART
YOU SEE ME GET F9 FOR O LEVELS THEN HAPPY?
WHY SIA
EVEN MY ART TEACHER WANTS US TO SUFFER
ARE ALL ART PEOPLE LIKE THAT?
IF THAT'S SO I DEFINITELY HATE ART TTM.
WHY SIA.





Anw waited for Krison whom didn't turn up.
Later damn late le a SMS received was,
"Sorry left my phone at home"


OMG!!!!
KILL ME!!!!!!!!





Omg there's art tmr
But for some reason I'm not nervous le
Maybe I guess Irdc
Maybe not?
Idk.

Idk what to say.

Went school.
I thought they would conduct a haircheck so..
I pinned up my hair.
And then they postphoned it.
Kns anot.


Lessons was ok.
Chem I screwed up the test.
Maths too. I forgot cosine rule :(
And sine rule although it's not needed.

Later on went tuition.
Then went parkway awhile.
To buy things.

Went home.
My dad called but I ignored his phone
Later turns out it's regarding fixing my comp
Haiiiiiz.



Today I got the courage to go look for HOD leh
Then hor.. They having meeting.
Zzzzzzzz

sat
Omg you know I was waiting at payalebar mrt there
Cause idk how to go grandlink from there (I FORGOT CAN)
then got some ppl come talk to me about religion LOL
Went grandlink to play hehehherhhe
Although I'm so noob omg.
Only know how to die.


Ok later went cine.
Watched "just go with it"
It's nice! ;D and funny I guess :3
Hehehhehehehe (: and you know I dropped my wallet ):
And it's so dark I can't find it.
But yay in the end I got it back :)


Later walked walked :)
Went suntec to have dinner
Then went Ecp.
Till 11.45. Pro anot.


sun
cancelled all tuition appointments cause I feel like
It.

today
didn't go sch.
Slept the whole day.
Couldn't study for chem cause I left my textbook in sch.
Haiz haiz haiz.

Didn't go school today.
Waited for cousin to get out of the house but..
Haiz she won't de.

Went to polyclinic.
That was fast.

Went parkway.
Went popular to buy things.
Then went under the EXTREMELY hot sun
To go to Marine Parade library.
Read lit textbook );
For like 5 hours
Only 17 chapters. Omg! ):

Cause I kinda planned to finish it by today.
So I'll hand up tmr.
But owell, looks like.. I can't do it.

Later Muk came.
Thn cabbed to tksc >:)
We to food court to meet jh & co.
Talked talked chat chat
Then later on went with Muk and jh to PP macs
LOL gossiped. /***
ate hot fudge sundae ;D


Later on late late le
Cabbed home.
Thanks for the ride!!!! :D

Had a great day although I must carry my heavy fullscapes everywhere
Hahahahaha

Sometimes i wonder why am I like that too.
I wish that I could just redo things.
Haiz.





School was ... Well not good?
I couldn't really keep up with chem.
Cause I don't really listen.
Maths, I scored 18/25 but is labelled as "did very badly"
As the paper was freaking easy.
As in WTF for what learn so many formulas when you can just use 1.
Lol.....




Tmr is road run.
I hope all is well.



Nights peepo.
Xoxo

After raping my red packets and calculating.
I'm kinda pleased XD

This is the first time in 15 years I have received over 1K!! ;D
Thanks to my generous daddy and my rich mummy.
Who earns so much but gimme so little.
I mean she doesn't have to support anyone why not just gimme all her $$ sia
LOL omg I sound so biatch.
But who cares you'll only know the side of me which I choose to show ;)

Don't pretend you know everything about me when you don't
And tell others stuffs when you don't even know anything.
*hint hint*






Ok anyway.
Today is okay bah @_@
Co again.. Is well I'm looking forward to it.
But nowadays thanks to the chit chatting I'm not so enthu about co as before.
I want to PLAY and not listen to peepo talk.




And omg mah friend dropped pure lit.
Which means....... T_T


Haiz I wanna drop art but I don't think it's worth it.
I wanna drop science and I know it's worth it but........
I just lazy write letter. LOL.






Nowadays I've been thinking about things alot.
But I still can't come to an answer.
:(

today my love told me that im very bitch

because i anyhow do things
and then i very revealing
wth ?!
other girl where sleeveless + so low de shirt
then he never say them .
me leh i never like that
then he say me like that.
wth !
:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@







okay anywayyyyyyy.
went east coast beach early in the morning :)
for breakfast @ coffee bean.

then, went marina sq to do somethings .
went bugis, bugis street.
i kinda saw someone who looks like elynhan.
because got her trademark - holey fringe LOL!
and the voice abit alike leh.
but cant comfirm, i shy! ahhahaha.
later on went suntec.
watched 'the green hornet'.
alot ppl say not nice, but i find it okay ley.
lol........ abit toot-ish though.
his english sounds like peter chao.



then went to eat @ kenny rogers
or something like that.
i love mash potato! lol ~_~


later went summerset.
then walked to cineleisure.
damn tired.


went home damn late :(
till my hp no batt.
haiz. :(
my monehhhhhh.
GONE $_$
NO ONE WANTS TO GIMME $$ ALRRRRRRRRRRRR

todayyyyyy





walked walked arounddd :)
then went to CNY thingy @ marina there :)
the place where the national parade was held.
haha!
although quite nothing to do.
the attactions..
for kids. D:
i really wanted to play but.. yeah i'm "old" T_T





hope tomorrow will be good day =)

haaaaiz.











staying @ dad's house.
scalded my left hand just now.
pain like hell. T_T

now the skin is like peeling off.
omg?












picking my mum from airport later.




omg i heard banglas singing.

haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.












my love just called me ugly because.
i got alot pimples.
then if i become very ugly.
then he dont want me le.






haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

school is really tiring.
and i don't really think i learn anything there.





i really rather self study at home.

L1R4 ?

maths fail.
science fail.
art fail.
lit fail.
chinese fail.
c. humans fail.



what can i do?
what do you think i can do to improve?
i dont even think i can self study at home anymore.
i just feel so tired.
i slept all i can but i just still feel so tired.

what should i do?
every single little thing distracts me everytime.
i cant concentrate.
i cant do it.