):








went CO today.
it was okay larh.




seriously i feel it's a bloody waste of time.
when the conductor just sits there and talk. :(
although im sorry for some mistakes like
playing the note at the wrong time.
sorryyyyyyyy :(
but still he shouldn't just sit there and talk about life right.
i go co to PRACTISE INSTRUMENT.
not to listen to some talks.
about great lives.
and successful wonderful and nice music.
haiz.









okay and then yeah.
nothing else.


























sometimes i just feel so sad idk why );
but when i really try to think of a reason why i'm sad.
i just couldn't find one. ):
my life is seriously great and wonderful.
but why do i still feel so sad. :(

LOL @ this. (this is pretty true!)


haha it's fine - i'm too mature to keep bitching about it but i will never forgive you for this

uhh okay? - what the f●●k did you just say to me ?!

wait what?! - i know what you said but i'm giving you a chance to change it so i won't smack you

omg LOL so mean!!! - you just said something mean about my friend but i'm not gonna say anything

haha cool - stop bragging...

or that's cool too - why did you just purposely do what i asked you not to

MEET UP SOON ! - i'm saying this to be friendly but it's never gonna happen

i needa go toilet! - come with me. right. now.

do you have extra... um *widens eyes* - i need a tampon/pad.

omg that's soooo mean! - i feel a little bad but not enough to help you

she's such a b●tch - i will most likely be all buddy-buddy with her tomorrow at school

















ok anw omg today was so bored:(
i slept throughout the whole afternoon LOL.




hope i can slp tonight.
hope the coming week will be good.



mummy coming on friday.
OH YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS SHOPPING TIME *_*

omg. :( i feel so fulllllll!





todayyyyy!
watched my zehzeh make bento. :D
then we rushed to leisure park to buy various ingredients >.<



later on went home.
yadayadayada till 3.
then, left house. :D


met aqua @ mrt LOL



then went ermmmmm plaza sing? :D
then walkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwa.
went mosburger ;D


then later jalan jalan around.
cine leisure ;D
then capital dunno what =x
omg i miss pc bunk LOL.
i suddenly rmb,
that was my 1st time meeting angel & jes :)








later on went marina square >.<
cause i kinda have to eat dinner with parents :(
but at least i pei aqua eat @ macs right :)



later on.. >.<
had to leave aqua >.<
cause i was kinda late =x


sorry k!!!!
sorry!!!!
sorry!!!!
sorry!!!!
sorry!!!!
sorry!!!! :(





although i am always 'walking around' marina square,
i dont really know my way around much and idk wheres the bus stop T_T
sorry!!!!!!! :(








k then later ateeeee dinner.
then they left me to walk around again.. :(
for 1 whole hour.


omg my feet was tired like mad T_T
so tired lol. :(





now home le.
forced to eat sushi bought earlier in the morning.
OMG!
damn full :(










can someone pls force me to go excercise.

omg haiz.

ohmygoddddd.
:(


my hopes were like...
*PUFF*



you know there's a talk today :(
after lessons.
then omg.
they talked about subject droppings.

AND THEN.
TUPID NATHYY HERE.
SO
EXCITED.
SO HAPPY.
FULL OF HOPE.
THEN
the talk finish alr.
i wait.
and wait.
and wait.
and wait.
then finally
i go there
i talk!
SAY!
i wanna drop art.
in my heart i damn happy cause.
i thought i can escape the wrath of her art teacher >;D
AND THEN
THE MAN SAID
"im not in charge of art... you must ask ms mastura, or your art teacher."
AND THEN
MY HOPES
HAPPINESS
AND
EVERYTHING
THEY WERE LIKE
*PIANGGGGGGGGGG!*
OMG
IM
DAMN
SAD
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG



T_T





i don't think i need art.
i don't need 8 subjects.
i CAN'T handle 8 subjects.






and you know today.... :(
i think i talked too much in chinese class.
i got a feeling the chinese teacher very upset with me. :(

well actually if she's just any other teacher i wouldn't really care.
but she's my cca teacher.
......
should be close with mr song because.. they're both.. china?


haiz.
die.
:(





and you know....
im in the maths remedial list.
haiz.


only-free-day-of-the-week.
is gone.



new timetable:

mon - cca
tue - tuition
wed - tuition
thurs - free day remedial
fri - cca
sat - tuition
sun - tuition

YOU KNOW i srsly dunno what to do. :(


should i drop art, and continue pure science?
or should i drop to combined science, and continue art?

deep in my heart i think dropping art is better,
i will make sure i study ULTRA hard for my science.
the thing is, i can't guarantee it,
and it's harder to drop art now, and
continue taking pure science would also be quite difficult.

the thing is, my art isn't all that great.
not good enough for even a A2.
another thing is, my science isn't good at all.
i can't even get a B.

however, based on the way i work,
i rather stare at a book than to be forced to draw with a pencil.
i can't get my mood right all the time for drawing and,
it takes up too much time.




drawing doesn't require studying but skills.
do i have the skill? no.
but i really can't guarantee a A1 for pure.
at least for combined science, there's a higher possibility.
but..... :( how.

how should i tell my art teacher?
can i pass today's chemistry diagnostic test?

i feel so loser during the chem diagnostic.
seeing the first question already makes me want to give the whole paper up.
i can't even tell what's above pH 7 and what's soluble.
i can't even tell what reacts with ammonia (i think) to give ammonia gas.
oh my god?

and there's a question asking,
how to get a dry, pure sample of silver chloride,
just from a silver chloride itself.
know what?
i don't know how to answer.
all i could ever think of is to fill up that blank space
which seems to be so empty.
writing craps makes me better i guess.
at least i 'tried'.
no, i really did try.
ohmygod.






so how.
it's my decision i know to choose.
but sometimes people's words affect me..
especially the "unless you guarantee you can get A1 for either 1 of your pure.."
those words scare me.
i know i'm not good at studying at all but i'm not good in art either.
art takes a long time to improve while science can be practised.



so..






guess i'd have alot of things to think about tonight.

when a student get scolding and he/she keeps quiet = they know they are wrong
but when a student gets scolding and they explain = they wan teachers to know why ,
but in teachers point of view , student is always wrong,
when student keeps quiet = they give attitude,
when student talk back = they no manners kpkb ..

-meki

LOL I'VE POSTED SOMETHING JUST NOW BUT I REALISED
IM TOO CHICKEN TO POST IT SO I SAVED AS DRAFT :$
(^^^^ the above words seeks alot of attention, doesn't it?)



you know i've been thinking of a new blogskin but.............





i just dont have the time lol.




okayyyyy.
thursday is gonna be damn shit.
because... the word "art" kills me.



tomorrow would be my diagnostic test.
i passed my physics diagnostic test btw :)
not saying i'd definitely be in pure though.
cause.........


deeeeeeep in my heart i wanna drop art :x
so, it's either dropping art, or science.


what should i do?
:(

know how i live my school life everyday?



i'd get out of the house at 7am.
take my time to reach school, just in time.
not on time, but in time.




after reaching school i'd go to the school hall.
take out reading book,
and during the reading period i'd be.. sleeping.

walking back to class i have to be sure that theres no teacher
watching out for untidy hairstyles like mine.





reaching class i'd be facing the irritating faces of teachers.
i'd be hoping teacher forgets about homework.
and during lesson i'd be rushing through fierce teacher's homeworks.


during art lesson i always feel that i'm in hell.
i don't even know why i'm in that course.
deep in my heart i.. just want to drop but.
it's not worth it and, i don't have the courage.
my art isn't good anyway and it takes up so much time.
since i've still have my 8 subjects i can drop.
but, i want to drop my science too. :(






everyday i've got to avoid eye contact with certain people.
everyday i've got to make sure i did at least my minimum in my work.
everyday i've got to avoid teachers so they don't catch my hair.
everyday i've got to be sure i dont give the teachers a bad impression of me.
everyday i've got to be well aware of things i say to people.
everyday i've got to resist not skipping classes.
everyday i've got to stop myself from falling asleep.
everyday i've got to endure the useless things school teaches us.



what's presentation for?
is it so that, the students are teaching ourselves,
and so the teacher doesn't have to do anything? :S


just kidding.



i dread school, seriously.

lets see.

what nathyy did today..
what nathyy is supposed to do today..




SS essay : 0/2
maths : 0/13
chinese : 0/1
english : 0/1
history : 0/1
literature : 0/4
art : 3/15



-______-..
tomorrow is DIE DAY.






today my papa never come.
never give me allowance.
i sure forget de!
plus i lent my zehzeh $$$.
$50.
that's alot to me.
i bet i sure forget by the time i wake up tmr.
she'd be sleeping anyway.
i dont ever think i'd ever remember it.
haiz.
and i wanna sleep now.
tomorrow die.


idc!




bye.

so tired today. :(





today went PP to get hamper stuffs.
stopped by at YE's place to wrap it up..
well i know i kinda never do anything.
just there for "participation" :X





later onnnnn went to aqua's house AGAIN *_*
aqua is sick siol lol hopes i get sick soon too.
okay, then..
went PP again cause aqua needs to meet hamper group friends.
after awhile they finished ~_~
while me, lol i was like "zhao le~"
then aqua really thinks im gone =P
hahahahaahhaha sucker sia.



JK~










ok later on went marina square.
then walkwalk arouund.
ate swensons.
yay i miss the ice-cream there.




then, went home. :D


[btw i did NOT touch anything. ):]

haiz ok....



today i went school yipeeeeeee (PUI)


omg you know during history lesson.
mr. rajan totally ...
omg.
its like he ask me sit on the floor.
do assignment.
because i nv bring history textbook.
then... i doing assignment on floor.
he called me a beggar
OMG!
KILL ME CAN.
T_T










co.
yay!
learned this certain skill i've always wanted to learn.
however, well i can't really do it right.
haiz ):






tomorrow..
i dont know what's gonna happen.
haiz.






at night went to marina square.
how would you feel if loads of cash was thrown to you.
you have no pockets, no wallet, not carrying anything.
just you and your pocketless clothes, and your phone.
with a $50 cash note.
how would yuo feel?
you are like alone.
walk around.
find what you want to buy.


well i know im the one who said want to go.
but i didn't go to get treated like this :(




my dad showed me my phone bill.
1.5k sms.
and guess what?
$0!
hooray, for unlimited sms! :D

you know hor just now i go tuition.
OMG I WAS DOING SOMETHING OBSCENE AND THEN I REALISE
THERE'S PPL OMG BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE QUITE LATE ALR THEN
all the shops closed and there's no ppl
then i suddenly realised the secuirity guard is there OMG.



ok nvm.




then you know i go home.
the very next minute i alighted from my bus then
MY SLIPPER FELL OFF OMG :(
and there's like a guy behind me and then i bet he is thinking
something like "OMG HAHAHA THIS GIRL SO SWAY HAHAHAHA "



haiz but the funny thing is that after walking barefoot home,
my feet isn't as black/dirty as i thought it would be O:
i mean, it's the road leh. and abit of uhhh floor yeah.
ok weird.







today is a weird day.
yeah.

i rmb there's a period of time last year
whereby i kept on drinking carrot juice.
haiz now my skin damn yellow-ish :(
cause that time, i didnt believe that drinking too much carrot juice
will make your skin yellowish then :(




haiz haiz haiz nvm.
SOON IT WILL WEAR OFF (i think)
and turn back to its bbbbeeeeeaaaaauuuuuuutttttiiiiiffffuuuuuuuullllll
natural color :D
HE-HE-HE-HE-HE (sounds damn bhb i know).
hahaha but i really can't bear to spend my beautiful $$
on whitening products which only works tempo ==".
if want buy something.. also buy permanent de marh. hahaha.




ok so yeah today right hmmm.


i feel cheated :(
you know, the physics diagnostic test wasn't as hard as i thought it would be..
cause i thought the school want many many students to drop and then
purposely set it hard hard.
in the end it came out EASY..
as in, REALLY easy.
the questions were very similar to the questions in the textbook.
the thing is that, i didn't study :(
i just know they're from the textbook!


haiz :(
and i spent $1.20 on something i didnt use - the protractor.
haiz...............








haiz you know just now i dry/comb my hair.
WOAH 1 whole bunch come out.
i becoming botak soon :(



hmmmmmmm sometimes i really what i want?
what will make me satisfied?
happy?
fulfilled?


i dont think i ask alot.
i dont think the things i want are hard to get.
i just want things which will make me happy :(

and you really really really haveeeeeee to understand.
school sucks for me :(









today went school..
yeah english.
mr krison was indirectly pointing at me.
as a lit student who "does not know how to present a presentation using powerpoint"
:(




and then he called me up to read something..
and then..
you know.......
i didn't bring my book LOL and so...
ok la i gotta at least read some lines out right.
so i ... kindaa DID say something!
and then he said something like
"my experience teaching at Broadrick is that the students can't read very loud"
or something like that :(
then he bad mood :(





and then you know during art again.
ms fud is angry!!!! >_<
cause alot people never bring materials/sketchbook.
then she was scolding the whole lesson..


then ok she gotta 1 on 1 talk to students regarding the O levels.
and then i 1st one and then..
omg she asked me do something but FOR SOME REASON im kinda deaf.
then i couldn't really hear >.......<
then she ask me take some transparent glass and fill it with water but..
i didnt really do it omg because you knowwww :(
and you know it's not like i really didnt bring my materials its just that
I LEFT IT IN CLASS DAMNIT and then i shy/lazy/sian go back take :(




ok then you know chem,
i didnt bring my textbook.. :(
but you know i brought the other day but then in the end never use.
so i decided not to bring it liao then just nice today.
she come and check LOL.
then you know i was kinda using phone and then i know she saw.
but she pretended not to see omg she's so kind but im so bad.
OMG HOW.




okay then you know today.....
i..
my eye become swollen again :(



haiz why life so sad.







why..

Do.
Homework.
Today.


Go.
Tuition(s).
Today.


Study.
Diagnostic.
Test.
Today.


Continue.
Literature.
Project.
Today.


Practise.
Piano.
Today.



Omg!
So many things to do today :( :( :(











Think.
Think.
Think.
Think!!!!!!

Todayyyyy.



went tuition ;D
guai or not?
but i secretly cut it down by 1.5h =P





went to aqua's house hahahaha.
then played metal slug xx HAHAHAH.
i like the girl sia.
so cute. :D







later on went parkwayyyy.
subwayyy :(

you know it's not that i dont like subway or what la.
it's just that right..
i...
always very no table-manners (no manners also la)
so i always eat until.. wow my face alot sauce.
the thing is that. sometimes i cant feel it LOL




OK I HAVE COME TO A CONCLUSION THAT......
FOR EVERYTIME I EAT SUBWAY.......

THE SAUCE ALWAYS COME OUT BECAUSE.........
i press on the bread too hard i think LOL .
HAHAHAHAHHAA .








okay then later went LANNNN :)
played L1D2 although i so lousy at it LOL .
then i keep dying :(
played till around 7+ then..
yeah :D
kinda "gtg" but then later on its cancelled already :/



went to popularrrrr :)
and you know....
the feeling is back :(
i RLLY RLLY RLLY RLLY RLLY had to urge to..
urghh... :( :( :(
why sia.. x_x


okay anywayyyyy...
the feeling of being "restricted" to do it..
its very 辛苦 cause..
you rlly wanna do it but..
someone else doesn't let you do it. :@
then the heart,
in there,
woah, like having war like that.
want to die want to die.







later on went back to parkway to walk walk :)
thennnn walk aroundddd..
walk alot of rounds LOL.





sooo yeahhhhhhhhhh.
eeyer i should have thought of a better dare :(



omg 2 dares i regretted is..
daring kimmy to go into boy's toilet.. LOL
and the 2nd dare is....
*cough*




so yeah sad sad :(
then now i made myself sound so
so
so........




eeeyerrrrrrrrr.

today........

i go to school :D







ok for some reason i've been thinking about this LOL.

i feel that, reasons why peepo like me brush their teeth is because....
it's not because i wanna make it white (although its just 25% true)
i think the other 70% is to make sure that...


you never have to suffer at a dentist's again.





hmmmmmm...
then i wonder.
i still wonder.
i dont really know how to brush the back of my teeth lol =x





ok i rmb hor when i was young.
then, my maid always ask me to brush my teeth before eatting breakfast..
but.. ?
sleeping = bacteria appears..
then, brush teeth = bacteria disappears..
then eat = baacteria appears..


so overall there'll still be bacteria ?
and then. sleep = bacteria appears,
then eat = bacteria appears
THEN brush teeth = bacteria disappears.


so after waking up and after eatting then brush = no bacteria.
doesn't it make sense ?!
i dont understand why it's wrong ):




i mean i dont do that la LOL now that i think of the theory like that.
im cause im used to brushing teeth right after waking up le =x







ok this post is random it's just that this haas been on my mind when i was staring at the mirror brushing my teeth LOL.


brings back memories :3

haiz today right.


the lit presention.
was epic LOL.
but owell....








later on art..
omg we are seperated! D:
but hmm maybe can concentrate more? :D








uhhhh and then i went to aqua's house.
haizzzzzz.
MY HAIR AH.
drop like mad.


THHEN RIGHT NOW OMFG.
I WAS COMBING MY HAIR THEN I TURN BACK......
THERE IS 18 STRANDS OF HAIR ON THE FLOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i almost did it.
i could have done it.



but something inside me just tells me it's bad.
it's something that i don't have to do.
something that is wrong, and there's no reason for me to do it.




i told myself many times.
to just forget it.
and do it the right way.


i was already 80% there.
but i chose to turn back.. and redo everything.




after it's all over..
i tried telling myself again..
to forget it.

but somehow.. in my heart..
i feel wanting to do it even more now.



): how.

You know I think my school is seriously screwed up :(

Damn the merge! 8(
Cause I believe that if we didn't merge..
We don't have to deal with all this new VP & P and stuffs..





For what sia.
Merge already only cause unhappiness.
Not only I not happy lor... :(
Might as well separate again, let students be happy right?
Afterall people study better in a happy environment ^_^ ..
...
...
...
...Rather than listen to the "useful" talks given by the VP.
What's more is like..
What the hell? Policeman. Very big arh? ~_~
Police can be pretty useless sometimes too.


8( 8( 8( And and and and and you know....... :(
FOR THIS 3 YEARS.
In sec1 to sec3.
I HAVE NEVER CLIPPED UP MY HAIR BEFORE.
This is the first year I ever clipped up my fringe..
And the result?
That friggin' teacher is not happy.
And "If I ever catch you again, I'm gonna cut it on the spot."

What the hell?
Just cause adults like us to look neat doesn't mean they can force it on us right!
Everyone got their own look.
Just cause they're older than us they push us around.
Like they're some big shot.
It's not I disrespect them but I really find them so.. selfish.


If I like botak people, and one day I become a teacher when I'm older,
I also won't force them cut botak what. -_-


Why don't they understand :(
I mean It's school but..
It's not like our hair affects us right.
Even students in elite schools have hair covering their face..
Broadrick probably only want "face" and "reputation" from the parents.
Make it a choice school? The rules here probably will just chase students away.
If rules are too strict no one's gonna follow.




By the way today the VP announced that there's a girl "kissing and hugging" in public LOL.
(so yesterday i hug kimberley so i must be kicked out la?)
Then, he straight say something like "BROADRICK DOESN'T NEED YOU!"
and said something like "CHASE HER OUT".
Well what's in my mind is..
"BROADRICK DOESN'T NEED A VP LIKE YOU!"

one year after today,
on 10 January 2012,

i wonder how i will be like?









heard from my guardian that my sister cried like hell.
don't even dare to return calls.
don't even dare to reply my SMS-es.

don't even dare to come home now.




The thing is,
her L1R4/L1R5 isn't that bad?
It's not like she can go ITE.
she can even make it to JC.
the thing is, it's not good enough for the good JCs.
That's all.





And then i was thinking..
she scored kind of badly, (for her) i guess.
But, she has higher chinese to minus 2 points for her.
She has a A1 for cca that minus away another 2 points for her.
Total minus 4 points.

Me?
I don't take higher chinese.
And, I wasted a year of CCA,
and it's not like my other 2 years gained me alot of CCA points.


I don't have anything to rely on.
Nothing, just solely on the real results I'll be getting.










I want to work hard this year.
I don't want to regret.




but... HOW SIA
I KEEP ON THINKING OF MY HAIR I WANT TO CRY LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Todayyyy.
went tuition norh.
nothing else.


life is boring.
my dad last night say want buy me curry puff ):
in the end he didn't.
he probably forgotten about it ):





Hmmm you know my hair damn shit.
-.-
I wanted to go outttt,
go CCA open house (i was somehow interested in it, since it'd be my last)
and there's alot alot alot of thingsssss.
no more worries being laughed at when i go to school.
but haiz.
my hair is way to hideous.

All i can do is to hide at home so that no one will see it.
isolate myself. till it grows.
sadly that won't come true because I'm not sick and there's school tomorrow.



Tomorrow, is the day I will get my Art O level question paper.
Goodluck to myself and my noob-ness.

okay you know..
today i went to school.




lalalalalalalalala till school ends.
hahahha the canteen filled with sec1 kiddos ^_^
they dont look sec1..
(although im not sure whether i look like them when im sec1)
then yeah lalalala
waited for CO. to start.
GUAI OR NOT YOU SAY?
guai la of course.



ok then go.
play afew songs then go home..













ok i tell you something ah.
its fine with me if you call me fussy long winded or what la but..
I STILL REALLY HATE MY HAIR I CANT ACCEPT IT.
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW LONG IT TAKES FOR IT TO GROW THAT LONG?!?!?!?!
THAT BLOODY GUY JUST SNIPPED IT OFF IN A SPLIT SECOND AND..
IM LIKE REALLY VERY SAD..
DO YOU KNOW.. ?
AND ITS NOT LIKE ITS BEEN VERY LONG SINCE I CUT IT THERE.
I CUT DURING MALAYSIA TRIP AND ITS ONLY BEEN LIKE LESS THAN 1 MONTH BEFORE CUTTING.
I SNIPPED AFEW LENGTHS BACK IN MALAYSIA AND MY HEART WAS LIKE.. IN PIECE.
NOW... YOU CUT IT AT LIKE... SHOULDER LENGTH ?!




FUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKK YOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUU HAAAIIIIIRRRRRRRDRRRRRRRREEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSER

BROADRICK SECONDARY SCHOOL SUCKS.




WHAT THE HELL ?
my hair is SHORT UNTIL LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT ALREADY.
ITS SO DAMN FUCKING SHORT TILL I WANT TO CRY... YOU KNOW?!
THEN THE VICE PRINCIPAL STILL NOT HAPPY..
then said something like
"I dont need ah lians in this school"
WHAT THE HELL ?
HAIR LONG MEANS AH LIAN MEH ?
ANYHOW LARH .
AT LEAST I KNOW MY NAILS IIS LONG IT'S MY WRONG
BUT WHAT THE HELL, MY HAIR SO SHORT STILL COMPLAIN ?
WTF LAAAA



i dont know why adults like short hair.
BUT JUST BECAUSE ADULTS LIKE SHORT HAIR DOESN'T MEAN
THEY MUST FORCE THEIR KIDS/CHILDREN/STUDENTS TO CUT SHORT RIGHT?
IF THEY LIKE SHORT HAIR THEY CUT THEMSELVES LA!!!!!
WHY INTERFERE WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S LOOK.
IT'S THEIR LIFE. THEIR OWN LOOK.
DONT NEED YOU TO CONTROL!
YOU DO YOU THINK YOU ARE ?
JUST CAUSE YOU ARE OLD AND KNOW THINGS BETTER THAN US
DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN JUST CONTROL YOU.
IT'S OUR LIFE IF WE RUIN IT IT'S OUR PROBLEM.
ALL YOU'RE DOING WILL JUST MAKE US HATE YOU EVEN MORE.














if you weren't so strict i wouldn't have to lie..

today was..
the first day of school lol.



haiz to wake up sooooo early in the morning :(
disrupting my precious sleep.
on my comfortable cosy bed :(





sooooo yeah i really didn't want to but for some reason ..
although reading from things like stomp, statuses etc,
i thought that iphone alarm's not supposed to ring and..
it did.
i was hoping for some excuse, oh i meant reason
why i couldn't wake up this morning and ..
haiz i did.
i'm trying to best not to lie this year anymore so......... :D






so yeah i woke up unwillingly.
blablablablabla-ed.
then i realised i got up too early LOL .
wanted to wear contacts to get better vision today.
but i see i'm left with 30mins before heading to school.
yes, 30mins and that's more than enough time to put in contacts.
but i just happened to have no balls to put it in and took it out.
although i thought i should have no problem by now.
i don't wanna be late on the first day of school y'know.



sooooo yeah went to school.
uhh it was damn shit....... :(
talk talk talk all the nonsense stuff..
i really wonder who will listen? zzzzzzz
i mean yeah it's rules but if it's too strict no one would follow..

so yeah had attire check and my bloody fail appeared to let pass.
but seriously ewwww..... tmd i'm so sad regarding my fulgy hair :(
honestly i still felt that school would be so much better w/o shit hair!
okay anyway they don't allow feelers and..
i'm pretty sure that i wouldn't follow that rule.
anyway lucky they allow my shoe ;D
cause i won't change it. hahaha.




okay la then blablablablabla.
1st day of lesson,
was like erm chinese + maths only.
nothing went into my head i was dozing off.....
i chose the seat somewhere at the back of the class...
not that i don't like it but YEAH I WAS REALLY DOZING OFF.
couldn't stop the urge to turn back to talk to d-darling.



















i really got nothing to say now :(
i just fell asleep T_T
AND NOW im like not tired not awake.
later sure cannot sleep well le haiz T_T

walao you know today i go and cut my hair.



THE PERSON AH playing his handphone .
then i want cut mah then the person ask him cut for me .
the person look so buay song sia wtf .


then he anyhow screw up my hair sia .
i think he angry or racist or what lor .
cause he malay.
then he really anyhow ..
he dont know what is "layer" T_T
then his hand got the coconut smell wth .



now my hair is f-ed up. T_T

Okay....


So I'm finally finally finally finally back to Singapore. :D
after the torturing trip of china T_T
i mean.. it's not like i want to go :S
although my guardians keep on blabbering about how much money they spent on me.
on the previous trips like turkey and all the additional things and all the things related to $
and i feel so .. "!@#$%^&*(" because i mean.. it's not like i want to go right?!
i just happened to be not at home when they called,
and my not-really-want-to-go sister just agreed to go and im like WTF?!


and they just bought the air ticket....... haiz.
i really really really reminded myself not to say "its not like i wanna go"
or "i dont really like it here" or "i got say i want come meh" to my guardians.
because they'd think that im ungrateful or something.
dont know how to appreciate their $$$$$$$$ blablablabla
but srsly how to tell them sia.
they get angry so easily and then they'd nag about how hard money comes and all..
i mean i KNOW that $$$$ comes hard but srsly I DONT WANNA GO T_T





okay sorry i just realised i made this point long-winded.
i'm 15 and i'm not that old, okay?!











okay so about the trip..
yes i've got peektures but my comp is still spoiled because
i forgot to pass my lappy to my papa hahahaha
owell and my phone is *no service* overseas aaaw .
cause papa thinks i will just sms like how i sms in sg .
but of course! im not like that. (HAHAHAHAHA)











okay...
so......
hmm let's see .
i can't really remember what happened la but i'd just summarise LOL.
okay 1st thing is.



I LIKE MY TOUR GUIDE HEHEHEHEHHEE XD
HE SO CUTEEEEEEEEE.
okay i rmb last year's beijing's tour guide i like also .
but he's married but THIS YUNAN'S TOUR GUIDE NOT MARRIED LOL
okay shutup whatever he's 12years older than me.
hmmm which reminds me my papa is older than my mummy around that much too LOL




OKAY ANYWAYYYYYYYYY,
uhh yunan is nice.
yup.
nice.



okay i know that shangri la is very torture.
torture till i wanna dai.
walao cause you know the place so high.
then bo oxygen.
very hard breathe T_T
then walk abit abit only then out of breath..
then my heart very pain...

then the shangri la hotel is like very..
well it's nice larh its the *best hotel* (the person said).
then right no oxygen alr.
then they will auto off oxygen at 1am~6am OMG.
then my sick sister woke up at 2.30am, which kinda wake me up too.
(or maybe i just woke up myself =x) grasping for air.
air..........

which reminds me last time i used to wonder how ppl cant breathe.
i mean, air is all around us there's obviously some way we can breathe right?!
i didnt know how it felt like to have no oxygen to breathe.
but now i know la... it's like your heart pain can liao LOL.




okay so yadayadayadayadayada.
im not lazy i really cant upload pictures so yeaaah hahaha.
i think the best thing is the cable car.
the one with the 2 seats with no 'box' de LOL .
just 2 seats hanging in the air. I LIKE!
hahahahaha
althoughhhhhhh im afraid of heights la. *tsk*









ok sooooooo yeah idk what to say liao.
i just know the worst moment was in shangri la because walao eh you know.
hmmmmmm what should i say?

school opening soon HOW i ate so much there.




tmr, i gonna go cut hair and make myself happy.
i hope.